Congratulations?

Well, life sure changes fast. Kim and I are just working on going through another cycle of invitro sometime in the future and my dad calls up to share the news he is engaged!?! Ok, so he started dating a lady back in october-and I know I'm not the one to preach on the length of time it takes to fall in love-but come on! This is a time I need to focus on good thoughts and not have any stress, but that seemed to fly out the window. I know it sound selfish and it's all about me, but for second marriages there are a lot of other people involved. She has three grown kids and 4 grandkids already...dad has a house full of Mom's things and now wants to be sealed to another person. I'm trying to deal with this the best I can...and I don't want to get into too much of his person stuff. Guess I am making it more complicated than it is. But, i think that is a big step to choose to be sealed to another person..I was dealing with the marriage thing-which is what I was told-but then Jessica called yesterday and said that is was more than getting married. So, that was a big surprise. So, now I have to deal with it again-with additional info that would have helpful YESTERDAY!! Kim is being so sweet about it, but he is not in this position and does not know how it feels as he tells me often and before he gives me his opinion which is worth consideration...I love you sweetie you are the best! It's not like dad chose this path-Mom died back in 2002 and so it's not like they got divorced, although I've thought it would be easier to deal with if that were the case. But it is not, and that is life. Kim always says, "Life is choices." So, that leaves me with a few choices to make about how I feel and what I'm gonna do about it,which has seemed to change from day to day since wednesday when he called. I know it's his life and choice, but when he chose to get sealed again-it kicks it up a notch an makes it eternal. And this stirs up all kinds of other feelings and emotions and gospel principles I don't wanna think about. Just writing this is causing me to get upset...I thought it would help to type it out, but now I'm thinking not. Why can't I just be happy that he is happy with someone other than my Mom? He has not set a date yet, but as he said don't worry, "It won't be anytime this year." Yeah, does he know the year is almost over?!?! When I get stressed and sad I want to shop and I am working hard not to impulse shop and buy a vinyl letter cutter, which is my newest crafty obsession. Anyhow- my goal is not to get too upset and let my emotions take over so I can keep calm and happy during this very important time in our lives as we try to have a baby again- during several month process that includes lots of needles and blood draws. But, I will gladly do it since the outcome could be a baby for our family. And if is not the outcome, then we will have to start our family another way. Either way, I can't wait to see what fun changes this new year has in store for our little family.